The next step.

Be ready to sacrifice what you are for what you could become.


I put both Little R and E up for sale today. Made the fliers and had a general overall sense of sadness to my demeanor. Even while I was riding R, even while I was clipping and making E beautiful. I went into this knowing it would be tough, knowing that I would have to sell them-- but as an individual I couldn't function believing that that was what I was going to do. When I ride, when I have a horse, I want to commit myself; I simply couldn't put forth as much love and effort if I were constantly thinking-- oh, I'm going to be selling you. It just doesn't work that way. Part of riding is having that emotional attachment, it's that partnership.

B made a good point tonight. I'm taking steps towards where I need to go and Little R and E were helping me to take those steps. They will always be special in my heart, especially Rowan-- I don't think you ever forget your first horse (especially after waiting so many years to get him).

Life is shifting. Change is always hard. But it's time to take the next step... and see where it takes me.